Baby Steps

by:  Bonnie Eichentopf

Lord I feel so blue,
I don't know what to do
But cry.
I long to be so close and held,
to never be let loose
Comfort me and love me,
Release me from abuse.
Only You can understand
Exactly what I mean,
For only You've been through it all
And only You have seen.
I want so much to be with You
With my actions, just to please;
Yet so afraid am I,
The thing I do is flee.
You're standing there with gentle eyes
With arms held open wide
I want so much to touch you
And yet I run inside.
My feelings I have locked away,
To be felt by only me
Although I'm safe, yet out of reach,
Ever lonely will I be.
Remove this fear within my heart
And in it's place put joy
Too serious I have become -
Too thoughtful and too coy.
These baby steps I take towards You,
Faith I've always had -
But now through trial, I'm learning trust
Through good as well as bad.

"For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father."
-Romans 8:15